Sweet Sadness

Last September marked the beginning of the end and the beginning of the new - at the same time.

When your life changes and something special is ending, something special is beginning.

Something special is beginning.

There is so much more sadness in the ending.

My love.  What can I say or do now?  I love you more than life and now I have to not love you so much - our love was so sweet.  Now it is so sad.

Our daughters are so sweet.  You are a sweet dad.  You are a sweet soul.  As am I.

My sorry is sincere, my sorry is sweet and loving.  My sadness is insurmountable.

We kept making it through for so long.

I look at our daughters and am filled with deep sorrow.  But I know that sense of sorrow will pass.  Life isn't easy.  Our life  wasn't easy.  Our new life will be filled with the sweetness of our children and the specialness of our times together and the sadness of what became as it played through.  That's all I know.

Now.  September 2012.  I am letting my heart bleed freely and I cry when I feel like it.  I am letting it be.

I love you very much and our love was big.  My effort is to hold my head high, hold our love and our story with pride as I pass it onto the open body of water - the message in the bottle.   I am going to set this love free, it is mine to do so with.

I am sorry.  I really am.

"Sweet surrender, it's all that I have to give....."