Insight

Some time ago and over a period of time, I asked god to give me guidance; to give me the strength that would show me the way. 

Then came Layla.

I looked deep into her eyes tonight, right into her soul and I told her this:

That she is the strength and she is showing me my way.  Her being born is the strength behind my overcoming hurdles.  Facing fears, being able to let go, navigating through anger and grief and finding the blessings and beauty in the moment.    She is the  pull of my feet to the earth.

Right now, I may not be able to pursue a career and achieve monetary gains / success, but right now, I can do and I can be just what I should be doing and being right this very moment in my life. 

I've been pushed in this direction outside of my immediate control, but this child was born to me - to our family and so this reality must move us to go to a new level.

That she is an angel of the real kind and that she needs to know over and over again of how truly wonderful and special she is.  She needs to be told that every day because she may not get it, but the repetition will do wonders for her soul.  Her happy little soul.

So Much To Love

"Through the Divine Spirit, in my subconscious mind, I pray that my mum's medical procedure will be completely successful and that she will be home soon"

This is part of an affirmation written by my father.  My great father for my great mother in law.  Right as I type these words, she is undergoing open heart surgery in Montreal and I wish I could be right outside of her room door with her.   I see a bright light of strength, hope, love and courage enveloping her heart, the team of doctors and nurses with her and blanketing her completely.  I see my hand holding hers curled up and sedated, squeezing love and light into her body.  Silent prayers and powerful affirmations abound from the center of my being, across the country right into her operating room.  My heart is beating extra strong for her - beating in time and channeling strength right into hers. 

When I married Michael, I gained her.  She is a gift and she is my mother. 

I want to be like her when I grow up......