My two daughters - number 1 and 2 - go to the same lovely school which started 2 weeks ago. They are using their wings and starting to soar. It is very special to watch and let go of the grip just a little bit and it feels right to do that. The first two weeks have been great for them.
The past month has been a tricky one for me. I've been anxious and panic stricken often and without much warning. It seems to occur during times of change and transition and September was looming around the corner when all this started. It's also my birthday month. All three of the girls are transitioning to school, a fairly tight and action packed schedule, Layla's intervention and therapy is more goal oriented and directed with more purpose and my husband is doing his thing full steam ahead.
Someone suggested that I don't know who I am and that it is definitely possible to lose the "yourself" in the mix of raising and tending to family. Truth is that I do know who I am. I'm Jennifer - what you see is it. Ta Da!! How does one who has such a large ego lose oneself - not possible, I just would never let that happen. But seriously, and upon trying to make some sense of the spinning head episodes and the feeling of disconnect between my head and the rest of my body reminds me that my energy source has shifted from my core to my head and that my feet aren't rooted on the earth. I don't totally know what I'm doing right here, right now.
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